The Feeling..........

Does anyone of you recall the very first day of your school, I recall it very well. Mom and dad were all smiles since morning and they got me ready in the new school uniform which I thought to be like any other new dress that they purchased for me every now and then, but who knew that it was a UNIFORM which had to be worn every dayL. So with the new uniform , a new water bottle and a school bag consisting of maybe 2-3 books at the most I reached school to see so many little kiddos of my age in the same uniform as I was in (obviously I didn't know what a Uniform meant). As i was looking around at the faces, some looking nervous, some mischievous, some already crying a lot , I heard a voice of some lady dressed in a white gown with her head covered, she was welcoming all of us to the important phase of our life (I don't recall this much, my parents told me :P ), we kids were least bothered of what she was saying, but as soon as she stopped speaking, I was in my mom's arms and she was taking me towards a room and so were the other parents. As soon as I reached there, I saw the other kids shouting and wailing like mad, that made me nervous and even I was about to cry..............but I didn't because my mom was holding me in her arms, but that wasn't for long, even I joined the chorus in a while when my dearest mom handed me over to the same lady in white gown who was delivering the speech. I turned around and ran back to mom, but mom again handed me to her, the same cycle might have repeated for 6-7 times atleast, but mom didn't budge and finally walked out of the classroom L.

I was yelling on top of my voice like anything as if trying to compete with the other yellers in my class and eventually winning too. I still remember I ran out of the class many a times just to find that my mom was sitting with other moms outside the class and as soon as she saw me , she hugged me tightly and the next moment I was back in the same class. The feeling of mom leaving me all alone in this world of unknown people, of scary looking strangers made me so nervous and I sobbed nearly every time she left me, but when I came out of the class I always saw her waiting for me , and that made me confident that she hasn't left me all alone, she won't go away from me.

Its not that I got this feeling just once when I started schooling, I got this kind of a feeling many a times when I was alone, when I left for Pune to pursue my Masters, I felt all alone, but then at the back of my mind I was sure that she is there for me and will be there for me always. Having said all this about mom, I won't take away the credit from my dearest dad, even he has been always there when I needed him.

But off late I realised that this kind of a feeling isn't just limited to parents and your spouse. I have been transferred to Bangalore for nearly a year. I was in Pune office for about 5 years now and this Bangalore stuff happened so quickly that I didn't even get a time to realise before I was onboard the Karnataka express to my new destination. But my dearest friends gave me a farewell at McDonalds (which I was supposed to treat, but eventually Deshu and Neha ended paying up the whole bill, I owe them a treat for sure J). They gifted me with a rocking T-shirt............which I was expecting :P , so had I not got that I would have been disappointed, but since they did , I was happy. Having a friend like Deshu , you can actually expect surprises, and indeed I got one , he gifted me with a Royal Challengers Bangalore Flag, which I never thought in my wildest dreams. The next surprise element was the beautiful photograph of sunset clicked by Kaushal at the Alibaug beach, it is one of the most picturesque photograph I have ever seen. Before getting all this, Ashish Singh had dedicated a poem to me and the whole gang, which was truly touching, and just a week ago a blogpost was dedicated or rather inspired by me, and no surprises here in guessing, it was Deshu again who composed this beautiful blogpost.

Back to 'The Feeling' I am mentioning in this blog, have you ever thought why you felt this way, because it was our mother, our father who consoled us and gave us strength during the times when we thought we have been left alone, they helped us grow, helped us cope up with the difficulties coming our way, they were by our side all day, all night and that is how we grew from a school boy to a college boy to an engineer or doctor or a businessman etc. This was the case when we were kids, but as we grew up, we moved out of our homes and started spending more time with our friends or our roomies, parents were not with us always, and this is where we started attaching ourselves with these beautiful friends, who were not as good as our parents, but atleast a substitute to some extent. We found a few with whom we shared our secrets, we spoke about our plans which we wanted to execute with them and no one else J, we did this, we did that, we fought, we patched up and we fought again, but patched up again too :P.

When I was leaving behind these friends, I was feeling really sad, really low and a similar feeling ran through my spine that I am all alone, where have my friends gone, where have my parents gone, my dear wife won't be there with me for a few days or maybe even a couple of months. But then like when I was a kid, I always found my mom waiting for me outside the classroom, I know these friends will be waiting for me somewhere and they won't go anywhere, because even they can't stay without me...................

So all my dearest friends, I am going to this classroom called Bangalore and will come out of it very soon with good results and will be back around/near you forever I hope J.