Worst Fear is the Fear of Losing our IDENTITY....

Have you ever come across a situation where life seems to be heading nowhere, things just dont work , whatever you do goes in vain, everything looks jinxed, everything around you looks scary. The confidence that oozed in you sometime back was just terrific, but at such times it seems to have disappeared somewhere, and you wonder was it really you who conquered these heights?
People around you seem to be climbing mountains, achieving success, doing everything you badly want to do, but for some unknown reason you are just not able to do anything , not even 10% of that.

The worst fear anyone can have is losing their Identity............... an Identity that was made over the years, the skills, the talents , the achievements that made this Identity. Its something like a paralysed life, you were able to run, but now you are not even able to drag yourself.

I am sinking deep in such a crisis. Once known for whatever I did, be it work or be it anything else............ is not even being asked today . I was always sought after to resolve issues at work place, but today there is no work, life is RUSTING like hell. Not openly though, but behind the back I have become a subject of ridicule. To top all this, the pressure of not able to fulfill my responsibilities hitting me hard deep down in my heart, my heart craving for the glory I lived in, for the fame I had. I feel like crying, but tears dont come out , I just want to get out of this as soon as possible and regain my identity.............

Such circumstances makes you realise one thing for sure, the friends who stand by your side. These situations actually give you the ability to distinguish between friends who are realising your apathy and those who despite seeing it, are not bothered to utter a word and help me out of this. Thankfully I can count a few friends right now, and I know they will be there always.

This post of mine might look very depressing, but this was one of the ways to let me express myself, let everything inside me come out in some form. I had to let this out so that I can have space in my mind to think of a BOUNCE BACK strategy.

Having said that I will Bounce Back, I know I can and I will do that but the only question is when, this question soon needs to be answered. And the answer lies with me only........... I was never a loser, and I have always made my presence felt, I have earned respect in the past and made my own IDENTITY which I have always been proud of.......

I have just slid down from the peak where I want to be .............. but I feel its just a matter of time .......... I have to prove a point to myself rather than anyone else. I have to be ME!!!!!!!!!